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Why Didn’t I Believe the Clues, My Own Intuition, Myself? Now I Will Live With My Worst Nightmare.

Preface: This week, I found very specific evidence of an intuition I have had for over a year. That Chris was sexually involved with my one of best friends, a person who was like a family member to all of us, who came on almost every vacation with us, was like a second daughter to …

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Is Chris Burns Dead or Alive? An Exploration Eulogy for a Man on the Run

I have heard it from many people–because we really didn’t get to say goodbye–that I should write a goodbye. No graveside crying, or planning a celebration of life. No community gathering at a certain time on a certain day to share in the joy and grief of a life lost to us. No chance to …

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24/7 Surveillance and a Christmas to Remember. What Was Fugitive Chris Burns’ Involvement with Secret Security Group Goshawk?

Two Christmas’ ago (2019), Chris and I were separated. I was laying on the couch curled up under multiple blankets shivering, hoping that my nausea would hold itself back through the opening of presents. I had been a single parent for sixteen days by that Christmas. Philip says that all he remembers is the gift …

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What We Went Through Right after Chris Burns Went on the Run from His 10 Million Dollar Ponzi Scheme

Eating out on Friday night with our family, Gavin wasn’t able to look any of us in the eyes. He sat with his head on the table resting on his crossed arms. He wasn’t talking–just a warm body sitting at the end; no real life exuding from his growing frame. I assumed he didn’t feel …

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Did Chris Burns Ever Love Us? We Struggle to Understand Why He Abandoned Us

Today, If I am being more honest with myself than I feel comfortable with, I miss my partner–someone I believed was my soulmate. I feel ashamed to say that. I feel confused feeling it. I judge my cognitive abilities when I realize my thoughts because I tell myself I am supposed to hate him for …

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Fugitive Chris Burns Left September 24th. What do I Remember About the Month Before He Went on the Run?

Sitting in the kitchen staring at our driveway, I was only half-listening to the psychiatrist on the other end of the phone. We had been living a Covid lifestyle for close to six months, so a forty-five-minute telehealth appointment was the best we could get for my son this afternoon. He had just come home …

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It Has Been One Year Since Chris Burns Went on the Run from the FBI. Knowing So Much More Now, This is What I Want to Say to Him

I’ve hit it. The one-year anniversary of the last day I ever heard from you. I got a text around 9:30 pm telling me you loved me and asking me to pray for you tomorrow which was strange because you were open about not believing in God or faith anymore. But I said I would …

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